March 10, 2003
And, as you know, often times there's bad news during pilot season.
The network test went very well. It was probably my best audition of the three for this role. Good laughs, good timing, I felt comfortable, I took my time but kept my energy up. It looked good.
Until...
No dice. Well, no dice now anyway, but maybe some dice another time. The CBS folk declined to make a decision on whether to cast me for the role. The other two gentlemen were sent on their way with no actual dice, but I was told not yes, but not no. Whatever the reasons, I would have to return to CBS at a later date to audition against at least a couple more Wes wanna-bes.
It's such a deflating decision. After the disappointment of the Coupling project last Friday, I thought today the bright light of success would wash away the crappy feelings that pilot season can generate. Instead, the pile of debris grew even larger. Come back and test again? What does that mean? "You're good for the part but it would be wonderful to find someone better." How could it possibly not feel like that?
Word on the street is that since the network president is absent (on vacation for two weeks), those just below him are simply protecting themselves. No rash decisions while the boss is away. I don't know the extent to which that is true, but right now it just feels like they've been trying to come up with a new way to make actors feel less relevant and less important.
Well, hurray, it worked.
Go on to Network Test II.