Day 3 -- Wednesday, February 16, 2000
I showed up at my job today after the demoralizing appearance at ABC testing for People Who Fear People. I was really not in the mood to talk about how I had just sucked and not gotten the job, let alone then try to be funny. But it turned out to be the best therapy in the world.
GRAHAM's scenes have gotten a little better every day. So every day there is something new and fun to try. Gil is very fun to work with and is always concerned with what is going to make something the most funny. Zack is a nice kid and fun to do the scenes with. The only drawback today was the absence of my co-star Meredith. She was booked on another show today and couldn't be there. The scenes definitely lost a little of their crackle. I guess it serves me right for abandoning her for yesterday's network run-through.
We reheasred our three scenes quickly and then held a run-through for the writers. Lots of laughs. Lots of fun. And yes, I know all too well that writers love to laugh at their own jokes, but after watching my comedic life pass in front of my eyes this morning at ABC, I breathed in the postiive reinforcement and held my breath as long as possible. It was what I needed to get the film from this morning off of my body. And it's a reminder of how this business works. It doesn't stop. There is no final success or failure. It keeps moving in waves, flowing, ebbing, constantly turning in turmoil. You enjoy the highs and ride out the lows and hope along the way that when the water recedes, it was all worth it.
Go on to Day 4.