April 9, 1998
How odd that today could be the day that my entire life changes. Even
more odd is that second place means nothing. No little change. No
second prize. It's a do or die moment today when I walk in that
office to read for the WB executives. And then I could take this
whole adventure to another level. Of course, there are a lot of steps
still involved. Even if I get it, the show has to be picked up, I
have to remain in the cast, more than 27 people would have to watch
it. Lots of business. And yet, for me, today is the day. Could be...
Well, life has not changed here in Studio City. Tomorrow morning will be the same as this morning. The WB will have to continue emerging without me. The word came back from Ted Hann that I was "absolutely terrific" but the Network felt I was not vulnerable enough.
"Give him that note and let him do it again," Ted pleaded.
"No. He's just not this guy," was the response.
That's how it was related to my agent, who passed the word on to me. Nine days and five auditions later, it's just another one of the roles I did not get. It just took a lot longer than usual for me to not get it.
So, on to the next one, I suppose... ?
Go back to the... Audition.